Bleurgh...

Well, it's half-term this week. DD1 is away with my parents for a week, DD2 (actually my stepdaughter) was away with her mother for the first half of the holiday and my DS has been at nursery for the best part of the week, which is just as well as I've been ill for most of the week. I'm not sure it's really fair that over the last 6 months I've quit smoking, started taking up more exercise, have started to lose weight and yet I've been sick with cold/flu on at least 4 occasions now - I'm literally hmphing with indignation as I type.

It's tough to carry on when you try so hard to be better and things keep knocking you down. It's far easier to give up and promise yourself that you'll have another go when things are a bit better. That's why it's taken me so long to quit smoking (although I think I've now cracked it for good) and why, I think, I never managed to hit that target weight before. In the past, I've tried and tried (and having PCOS means that I have to work that much harder to be able to reverse the insulin resistance which comes with the condition) and after a couple of months of dieting and working out and getting 2-3 stones in, I'm frustrated that I still can't see the difference and so, at the first (not-so) major hurdle, I declare the whole thing a right-off and say I'll come back to it later. The thing is, will I be able to break the pattern this time around?

At the moment, things are going reasonably well - I've just signed up to complete a 26-mile trek in September, walked 8 miles this week and lost 3 1/2 lbs at weigh-in on Wednesday but I'm my own worst enemy so I'm glad I have this blog. In the months to come, I can look back over the entries and see how far I've come.

At the moment, I should be marking Year 9 exercise books - without a doubt my favourite class but absolutely the worst task in the world. My only saving grace is when one of them manages to write something accidentally hilarious, previous entries have included: 'I looked at him with my eye' and 'I held up my head'. These are just off the top of my head but I know there have been far more, I'll be sure to post some more down when I next come across them. I do love my job but the paperwork is a drag.

I think I've procrastinated enough and should probably make an effort to get back to my books, although I'm sure there's a cuppa I could be having and perhaps some veg to chop up for dinner...